I decided to look for Christian prompts (and I encourage you to do the same) to practice writing again at the same time immerse in my faith. Here goes my first attempt.
Describe a time in your life where God has rescued you. Do you believe He’ll do it again?
I believe God rescued me a lot of times before but I was not able to see them because my eyes were blind. However, I will always remember the rescuing moment I experienced with God in 2019.
I was first baptized in 2008 but went back to my old ways, and so in 2019 I re-established my walk with God. I then started my One-2-One with Ate Erika. (One-2-One is a seven-lesson discipleship journey to help jumpstart someone’s walk with God.) She led me through it, and she has been one of my godly counsels since then.
The first step to this was salvation, then repentance. When we got to repentance I was moved and was lead to repent everything that same day. I decided to turn away from sin and any acts of sexual immorality. Expectedly I failed several times but I knew the Spirit was already at work.
That time I was in a sinful relationship. I was trying to save this relationship as much as I did to the person but it did not work out. In the end, we broke up. Of course, I was devastated because I never wanted it to end in the first place. But then I was also determined to walk with God. It was like I had to choose between him and God, and I simply chose God.
A few months before any of this happened, my ex-boyfriend and I planned out to secretly live together–without even getting married first!–and to look for a place near his workplace. We were just waiting for the right timing–my brother’s graduation. It was scheduled in January 2019, just a few weeks after I started with my discipleship journey.
Can you see God’s timing there?
I came to realize this whole rescuing moment when I watched Tony Gonzaga’s testimony (a few months after our break-up) where she said,
“Sometimes, God will destroy our plans when He sees that our plans are going to destroy us.”
My ex-boyfriend and I were enjoying a sinful relationship that we planned to take that sin to the next level when we decided to secretly live together just to get more burned with sin. We were so blinded by sin that we did not realize how it was going to destroy us both (Proverbs 14:12). Our selfish desires almost pushed ourselves completely further away from God and most definitely away from our families.
After realizing this I cried to God to thank Him for rescuing both of us from our destruction. I suddenly saw my pain from God’s perspective. That break up was painful but it became a turning point for both of us. It was the mercy of God to break us apart, mess up our relationship, and give us what we hope would never happen. That great mercy humbled us and saved us both.
As Jon Bloom had written,
“We often aren’t aware of how deep, pervasive, and motivating our [flesh] is. We often are blind to how much we cherish the glory of our name. But God knows. And in mercy he confounds us, impedes us, and humbles us. And it is all mercy.”
“God loves us and knows what is best for us, and in mercy he will not allow any achievement that we pursue for our own glory to rob us of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus (Phil. 3:8).”
Today he is leading a discipleship group (my brother included in it) and he recently asked me out again. But that’s another story for another post.
God turned our breaking into our breakthrough. In the end, He still blessed us both even when we’re not deserving of it.
Do not be afraid of them, for I am with you to deliver you, declares the Lord .” (Jeremiah 1:8)